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Name: Elizabeth
Location: Boston, Massachusetts, United States
Birthday: 12/26/1982
Gender: Female


Interests: I want to spend every minute of my time loving and serving the Lord of my life. Unless HE is glorified in me, there is no point to my being! He has wired me to love singing, listening to all styles of music, performing in dramas, taking care of children, scrap-booking, drawing, reading, swimming, Pilates, Tae-Bo, walking in the city, taking photographs, travelling, reading, and watching movies...
Expertise: My friends say that I am creative and compassionate, but I don't know about that... I can't really think of any area that I am extremely proficient in... =)
Occupation: Missionary-- learning, growing
Industry: Spreading His grace and glory


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Saturday, July 07, 2007

Walking in Truth

St. Francis of Assisi:
It is no use walking anywhere to preach unless our walking is our preaching.

All this wandering (and sometimes RUNNING!) around airports is very thought provoking.  My mind has traveled from various random topics and (for the moment) has settled on this rather sober thought:  "WHERE am I going?"

As it turns out, I really don't like the person I am right now.  And where am I headed?  The choices I am making today determine my destination tomorrow...  Where am I supposed to be?  What am I doing to get there?

As I look around at other people my age or in a similar lifestyle as me, everyone appears to be so organized and so confident and so connected--it's amazing how many people seem to have it together!  They know where they are going and how they are getting there.  They have a plan, and they are putting that into practice!

And then there's me.  Very much struggling to make it through the day and the week--not really on top of the FUTURE!  It's this vague thing looming in the background of my mind.  I'm not sure where I fit into the puzzle...  So many of my thoughts are consumed with trying to solve this problem of the FUTURE.  There are so many more questions than answers.   

The truly happy person is the one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour--like my beloved sister (we TRIED to get lost driving around in downtown Boston yesterday after I dropped my paperwork off at the Korean embassy, and we had SUCH FUN!).

The journey or the destination?  There has to be a balance of preparation for both, but which one occupies your focus right now?

Open your eyes and look at the people that are around you right now.  Look beyond the circumstances, and enjoy the reality!  God is GOD, and He is AWESOME.  The people that are next to you NEED Him, and YOU hold the hope and the truth of their ultimate purpose.  YOU hold the cure to their cancer.  YOU hold the glorious truth about the Lord of the Universe. 

Please...  Enjoy this journey. Don't waste time complaining or wallowing in selfishness or laziness.  Don't just focus on the destination, but on the beauty and the people along the way.  Our Father put it all there for a reason! 

...It was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be:  flying in, spending ONE day with a few members of my family, and flying out again the next morning.  My heart is sad, but I'm not going to waste this time He has entrusted to me!  His love for me is REAL, and I have such glorious hope in Him! 

Part of the beauty of my spiritual condition is that there does not have to be any spiritual layovers.  I can CHOOSE to waste time lounging around in selfishness or bitterness, but I can also always choose to check in to Grace and Truth and Strength, and head out of there!  Anytime!  I love it!   

"Peace be da Journey."  Run Strong.  Walk in Truth!   


Wednesday, May 30, 2007

"Let Him Come."

God is not willing that any should perish...

"If sinners be damned, at least let them leap to Hell over our bodies. If they
will perish, let them perish with our arms about their knees. Let no one go there
unwarned and unprayed for." -- Charles H. Spurgeon -


 

Donuts for the Class

There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, a
studious man who taught at a small college in the Western United States. Dr.
Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity at this
particular institution. Every student was required to take this course his
or her freshman year regardless of his or her major. Although Dr.
Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the gospel in his
class, he found that most of his students looked upon the course as nothing
but required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, most students refused to
take Christianity seriously.

This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Steve was
only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminary
for the ministry. Steve was popular, he was well liked, and he was an imposing
physical specimen. He was now the starting center on the school football
team, and was the best student in the professor's class.

One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk
with him.

"How many push-ups can you do "

Steve said, "I do about 200 every night."

"200 That's pretty good, Steve," Dr. Christianson said. "Do you think you
could do 300 "

Steve replied, "I don't know... I've never done 300 at a time."

"Do you think you could " again asked Dr. Christianson.

"Well, I can try," said Steve.

"Can you do 300 in sets of 10 I have a class project in mind and I need you
to do about 300 push-ups in sets of ten for this to work. Can you do it I
need you to tell me you can do it," said the professor.

Steve said, "Well... I think I can...yeah, I can do it."

Dr. Christianson said, "Good! I need you to do this on Friday. Let me
explain what I have in mind."

Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of the room.
When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts. No these
weren't the normal kinds of donuts, they were the extra fancy BIG kind,
with cream centers and frosting swirls.

Everyone was pretty excited it was Friday, the last class of the day, and
they were going to get an early start on the weekend with a party in Dr.
Christianson' s class.

Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked,
"Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts "

Cynthia said, "Yes."

Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, "Steve, would you do ten
push-ups so that Cynthia can have a donut "

"Sure." Steve jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten. Then Steve again
sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia's desk.

Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, "Joe, do you
want a donut "

Joe said, "Yes."

Dr. Christianson asked, "Steve would you do ten push-ups so Joe can have a
donut " Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut. And so it went, down the
first aisle, Steve did ten pushups for every person before they got their
donut. And down the second aisle, till Dr. Christianson came to Scott.

Scott was on the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve. He was
very popular and never lacking for female companionship. When the professor
asked, "Scott do you want a donut " Scott's reply was, "Well, can I do my
own pushups "

Dr. Christianson said, "No, Steve has to do them."

Then Scott said, "Well, I don't want one then."

Dr. Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked,

"Steve, would you do ten pushups so Scott can have a donut he doesn't want "

With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten pushups.

Scott said, "HEY! I said I didn't want one!"

Dr. Christianson said, "Look, this is my classroom, my class, my desks, and
these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don't want it."
And he put a donut on Scott's desk.

Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little. He just stayed on
the floor between sets because it took too much effort to be getting up and
down. You could start to see a little perspiration coming out around his
brow. Dr. Christianson started down the third row. Now the students were
beginning to get a little angry.

Dr. Christianson asked Jenny, "Jenny, do you want a donut "

Sternly, Jenny said, "No."

Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, "Steve, would you do ten more
Push-ups so Jenny can have a donut that she doesn't want " Steve did ten....Jenny got a
donut.

By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room. The students were
beginning to say "No" and there were all these uneaten donuts on the desks.

Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get these pushups done for
each donut. There began to be a small pool of sweat on the floor beneath his face,
his arms and brow were beginning to get red because of the physical effort involved.

Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever in the
class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full ten
pushups in a set because he couldn't bear to watch all of Steve's work for
all of those uneaten donuts. He sent Robert over to where Steve was so
Robert could count the set and watch Steve closely. Dr. Christianson
started down the fourth row.

During his class, however, some students from other classes had wandered in
and sat down on the steps along the radiators that ran down the sides of
the room. When the professor realized this, he did a quick count and saw that
now there were 34 students in the room. He started to worry if Steve would
be able to make it. Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the
next and the next. Near the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough
time. He was taking a lot more time to complete each set.

Steve asked Dr. Christianson, "Do I have to make my nose touch on each one "

Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, "Well, they're your pushups. You are
in charge now. You can do them any way that you want." And Dr. Christianson
went on.

A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to the room and
was about to come in when all the students yelled in one voice, "NO! Don't
come in! Stay out!" Jason didn't know what was going on.

Steve picked up his head and said, "No, let him come."

Professor Christianson said, "You realize that if Jason comes in you will
have to do ten pushups for him "

Steve said, "Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut"

Dr. Christianson said, "Okay, Steve, I'll let you get Jason's out of the
way right now. Jason, do you want a donut "

Jason, new to the room hardly knew what was going on. "Yes," he said, "give
me a donut."

"Steve, will you do ten push-ups so that Jason can have a donut "

Steve did ten pushups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered,
was handed a donut and sat down.

Dr. Christianson finished the fourth row, then started on those visitors seated by the
heaters. Steve's arms were now shaking with each push-up in a struggle to lift himself
against the force of gravity. Sweat was profusely dropping off of his face and, by this
time, there was no sound except his heavy breathing, there was not a dry eye in the room.

The very last two students in the room were two young women, both cheerleaders, and
very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second to last, and asked, "Linda, do
you want a doughnut "

Linda said, very sadly, "No, thank you."

Professor Christianson quietly asked, "Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Linda can
have a donut she doesn't want " Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slow pushups for
Linda.

Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. "Susan, do you want a donut "

Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. "Dr. Christianson, why can't I help him?"

Dr. Christianson, with tears of his own, said, "No, Steve has to do it alone, I have given him this
task and he is in charge of seeing that everyone has an opportunity for a donut whether they want
it or not. When I decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at my grade book.
Steve, here is the only student with a perfect grade. Everyone else has failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work. Steve told me that in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push-ups. I told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paid the price by doing your push ups. He and I made a deal for your sakes. Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Susan can have a donut " As Steve very slowly finished his last pushup, with the understanding that he had accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 pushups, his arms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.

Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said. "And so it was, that our Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, plead to the Father, 'into thy hands I commend my spirit.' With the understanding that He had done everything that was required of Him, he yielded up His life. And like some of those in this room, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten." Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physically exhausted, but wearing a thin smile. "Well done, good and faithful servant," said the professor, adding "Not all sermons are preached in words."

Turning to his class the professor said, "My wish is that you might understand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that have been given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He spared not only His Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all for the whole Church, now and forever. Whether or not we choose to accept His gift to us, the price has been paid. Wouldn't you be foolish and ungrateful to leave it laying on the desk "
- Author Unknown


Saturday, April 28, 2007

Weirdness!

I believe this would be called apathy...

A complete lack of motivation... 

Knowing that I should be doing something right now, and that there WILL be consequences for NOT doing it now, but not really caring.  At ALL. 

And still not moving.

OI, this is awful. 

I've given myself a TON of stern speeches...  How COULD I act this way--God has given me EVERYTHING.  How dare I not USE what He has entrusted to me?  What if Jesus had just suddenly decided that He didn't FEEL like dying on the cross?  What if EVERYONE simply let their moods control their actions?

Why am I being so stupid?

...And yet I still sit here.  Not wanting to get up and deal with reality.  Bleh.

 

Well, this was a pathetic disgusting vomit of selfishness.  I'm thoroughly sick of myself.
I'm getting up now, and I won't erase this...  Just so I can be reminded how ICKY I can be.  And DON'T want to be!


Sunday, April 15, 2007

Genuine Love

My flesh wants a hug and a chocolate sundae. 

God has given me TRUTH (which isn't always that pleasant) and challenging situations instead... 

The blessing is that He provides what I NEED, and what will bring Him the most glory. 
Rather than what will make me content to remain here (when I need to move) and add a few extra pounds I don't really need. 
He's so good like that! 


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Free Falling...

 No excuses.  No defense.  I was wrong.

...Sin is so easy--it feels so good!  And nobody else sees anything wrong with it!

But I know my heart. 

I know how it worships this idol.  I know how my thoughts dwell on it and my emotions crave it...  I know how I have placed this idol so high on my priority list.  I know how I have chosen to ignore what I know, and give in to what I feel. 

Kinda like bungee jumping...  I chose to leave the platform that I know...  This place where I am safe and warm. It's so beautiful up there--I can see for miles! 
I chose to fling my body into the air.  I plummeted towards the earth--the wind whistling in my ears...  What a crazy ride!  I'm flying!  This feels so amazing!  All the while, I'm falling deeper and deeper... 

JERK!!!!  I choke as my body is whiplashed backwards.

The one line that promised to NEVER let me go has kept me from falling to my death...but ultimately, my choices have left me hanging.  The exhilirating thrill is gone. 
I'm just hanging--helpless in the air, uncomfortable, awkward, and ashamed. 
Up there on the platform I had all that I could want!  Security, stability, and the glorious life in the clouds.  Better than flying!  Thinking I could take it all for myself, I jumped...  I knew better.  I didn't care about what I knew--I only cared about what I wanted. 

I want to be back up there, but it's a process.  He winds me up, but it's slow...  It's work. 

He forgives me, but my actions still have consequences

 

I feel wretched.  I am so grateful for grace.  I want to learn to FLY.  When I try to do it alone, I just end up crashing into the earth.  When I let HIM carry me, He'll never let me fall. 

 

..."They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. 
They will mount up with wings as eagles."...



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